Last week I had a really sweet 2 year old patient whose parents couldn't be there with him on my shift. So that meant I was nurse/babysitter. We read stories, walked laps pulling the wagon (and IV pole), had a playdate with the girl next door and fought over playdough, and stacked blocks. Between that and studying pediatric development the last couple of weeks, I've been really missing my tiny kiddos! That stage was so much fun--the tea parties, the playparks, children's museum, the zoo, the chubby little thighs, thumbsucking, messy faces, puppy dresses, runs with the jogging stroller. Oh my gosh. I need to stop doing this to myself.
The thing is, I don't think I fully appreciated it at the time. I didn't savor it like I would have if I knew then what I know now--that everyone was right: it really does go by way too fast. I don't think the post-partum blahs really lifted until Amelia was a year old, and when I see a lot of these photos they make me sad because I was a bit of a mess still and I think I missed out on some of the joy. That's not to say I didn't enjoy that time. I did! I loved being a stay-at-home mom to those little girls, and we had so much fun. But I also think that first year of being a mom of two was pretty rough for me, and I wish I could do it over again so I could kiss those chubby thighs and snuggle with sticky girls under a fort in the living room again, fully absorbing all the love and wonder of that time.
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Absolutely adorable photos. You know, your still plenty young enough to have a mid gen offspring. Or two!
Ohhh! All those of Maddie remind me of B - especially the marker ones:) Makes me sad to think it's over so quickly.
I've been struggling with this myself lately.
I completely have tears in my eyes reading this post and I couldn't agree more with everything you said! I'm feeling sad because I feel like I'm still in a fog but my kids are old and I have no excuses. I hope it's not too late for me to change and try and treasure more moments with my kids without worrying like crazy.
P.S. I love all your pictures, especially the ones with Maddie covered in marker! Too cute!
I just realized that I look like a crazy blog stalker with all these comments....sorry! Also, I just realized what time it is and maybe I'd be a more fun and relaxed mom if I actually went to bed at a decent time. Thanks for making me think about what is important. I don't think I'm making much sense...sorry again!
Love those pictures. So sweet and what cute girls! I am sad because will is quickly growing up and I wish I could freeze him just as he is right now!
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